The season 11 premiere of "The Real Housewives of Orange County" was very emotional with Vicki Gunvalson walking around in her home alone at night as she reflected on the last season of the reality show.  

Vicki's voice quivered a little when she said that she has never been alone, and that "Dinner for one is not as fun."  She talked more about her relationship with Ayers and reminisced painfully the time when he had to move out from her house. 

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"I literally laid in the street crying, begging him not to go," Gunvalson said. "I'm like, 'I don't care about your medical records. I don't want you to leave. I know you're sick.' And he's like, 'It's never going to work.", Gulvason said during an interview with E! Online.  

The usually elegant and prideful Vicki shared that she made a fool out of herself because of how hard she fell in love with Ayers.  To her, the most painful part was the deceit that should never happen to any relationship.

Until now, Ayers has stuck to his statements. He said he never lied for the show to have higher ratings and for him to have more exposure.  

Vicki mentioned that when she thought her ex suffered from a terminal illness, cancer, she was so distraught.  This alienated her from her fellow housewives in the hit reality show, family, and other friends.  

According to People, Vicki felt awful when she was accused of being an accomplice to Ayers' lies. Her feisty statements has made enemies which, she deeply regrets right now.

Vicki wants to make amends with her fellow housewives.  She mentioned that setting everything to how it used to be is her goal.  Though it seems a herculean task, she'd like peace and harmony to reign again in her life.  

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